Side eye of the day

Arnell walking past Kogods (Liquor store)

Dude: Miss.
Arnell keeps walking.
Dude: Ay boo, lady, baby..hold up.
Arnell stops.
Dude: Can you help me out?
Arnell gives the side eye as she currently has about two thousand dollars on her person.
Dude: I just got home from doing 18 months, i'm just tryna eat and get home on the metro. Can you help me out? Im just tryna eat.
Arnell: Im a college student im broke like you.
Dude: I respect that, you got some sexy ass lips, you got a pen so i can get your number so i can call you when i get my money right?
Arnell: Naw, you got it.
Dude you will never get your money right in this economy. Second why are you posted up at the liqour store?
Side note: Dude was fine, too bad he was a broke ex convict. Gotta have bread to keep up with me.

Gentleman Caller

So, out of nowhere i've acquired a gentleman caller. The story behind the phrase "Gentleman caller"....so back in my Disney days when I lived in 3202 ( three two oh two) as opposed to 3202 (Thirty-two Oh two) my roomates would have random guys call on the apt phone, which was strange because no one used them unless they didnt have a cell phone, in which these guys didnt because they were all foreigners, and couldnt really speak english. Lol. I would leave messages on the fridge "Megan, you gentleman caller called". Definately was way funnier in the moment. lol. So me and this individual are on a good track, conversations are great, the come easily like ive known him for awhile. We shall see, I definately dont want to jinx it, but it doesnt really matter because im moving to florida soon. But it cant hurt to have some "spring romance" only spring lol. The only thing that bothers me is, dude doesnt have a cell phone, so he calls me from random numbers, okay, its happened before, however, this gives him the power. He dictates when we talk which kinda bothers me, but then again if it were the other way around, i doubt i would call him. I know me. Lo key the back of my mind, i gotta deal with my insecurities. I think constantly, am i sure he really saw me? Am I sure he's not gonna play me. But these are the things that have held me back so often. So im trying to turn over a new leaf. I normally try to protect myself so quick that I end up pushing people away. Im also quick to cut someone out of my life. I only regretted that decision one time. But the end up result showed me i made the right decision. And he definately wants to talk to me, and is always tryna chill, so the beginning is good, we shall see as time progresses. It also sucks that we run on different schedules, I open and he closes, and we literally work a couple blocks from eachother, but I literally leave when he gets to work. And by the time he gets off, im falling asleep, or well into wonderland. So I guess I have to make a few adjustments to my daily routine, i guess i could do that. yes, i think i could. Im excited for the future.

My boss put in her two weeks notice today.

This is both bad and good.

I had to get parts of my body waxed that im ashamed to say.
OD.

Im so used to the ridiculousness that is my job. Its sad.

Im excited to move, and start the new part of my life.

He drives a Green Bubble....

Its hard to explain whats going through my head right now. I guess I just feel like my life isnt fufilled, like I need something more. It's time for the next big thing, I've fallen into a slump. My daily routine, has become typical. I can honestly say, I almost miss the days we would go to Rivertowne or Iverson, and just walk around and get hit on by mad dudes. Give some of them our numbers and would let them wrap us up for months at a time. That doesnt happen anymore. I must be getting older, or just in the wrong places, or as Lindsay puts it "Not head to toe in Academiks" There is absolutely no variety, even days at work are the same, Hell. Sometimes I get to limbo, but mostly hell. Im ready to move, but the leasing office is so late to get back to us, making us think negatively, but I have to keep a positive attitude. On top of it all, I dont understand this friendship, not at all, but maybe thats the way its supposed to be, so that when we see eachother, its just that much better.

I think i've outgrown the DMV as ridiculous as it sounds. I really do, its just not where im meant to be.

I dont think I realize what I want, and why it hurts so much.

April Fools

No matter how I think we grow
You always seem to let me know
It ain't
workin'
And when I try to walk away
You'd hurt yourself to make me stay
This is crazy

Mad relevant to life.

Happy Birthday to Marvin Gaye, Magic 102.3 would not let me forget his birthday was yesterday.

Isnt this a creepy picture?

Way to be a creep awakening man.

Headed to Brooklyn for the weekend for a mini vacay, its Spring Break so, I gotta vacay, where did I hear mini vacay from? Good Question right?

A man in Binghampton, shot up a citizenship test, really? you couldnt at least let them finish there test? Citizenship is not easy to come by, you will since be on the cover of "O" before your request is approved.

I know right.

No update on Florida, we are just awaiting the call.

I'm so ready for the struggle, its the next step in the natural progression of life.

La Vie Boheme

I came across this email I recieved 4 years ago, I dont delete emails....

My girlfriend had a boyfriend once who was a socialpath. During the time when her mother was drinking and was always passed out and cussed at her and told her she wasn't her daughter, she went into a deep depression. When she was 10 her father died so she really had no one else. She got no love and no time to relax. She began 2 cut due to her depression. This boy who's soul I would easily take and have no remorse convinced her that he cared about her but slowly he started treating her like shit. he cussed at her, hit her, and used her strictly 4 oral sex. He put her down constantly. She hit rock bottom and became bi-polar and continued to cut. One time he grabbed her head and forced her even when she said no but she always said no but did it anyway because she didn't want to lose the only peron she thought cared about her except for that one time. his friend took pictures of it once and they both ende up in trouble. She ended up looking like a slut and him like he was great. I burning hatred resides in my heart for this boy but she has asked dat i not kill him. This all happened a year ago but due to her meds and the way her mother raised her she surpresses bad expieriences. There are so many others on top of that that are hitting her all at once and once again she is going into deep depression. I love her and it has been mentally and physically affecting me. I deal with stuff like this everyday and not just from her. I need to devote all my time to helping her get through this cus like I said I love her. I am so tired Arnell, in so many ways. Im so tired everyday...everyday I want to break down and cry but I can't becus people need me. She needs me. I am no longer a good friend. I am no longer whatever anyone needs me to be for whatever reasons and im sorry for that but I hav sacrificed enuf and I kno where my priorities ly as of rite now. U been mad at me off and on again 4 whatever reason and im sorry im so horrible. im sorry for being whatever it is I am Im sorry.

It created an excuse when there was no excuse, and now that I go back and read this and realize just how riduculous this sounds. And im sure at the time I was so in awe of his sensitivity. Im a lame. Whatever. Im not even gonna put my response on here, i didnt even read it, because I know it was lame. The whole situation was lame, and to think I wanted to be friends with him again, ha! I need to leave P.G. County, there is nothing left for me here.

To Sodimy, its between God and Me

I'm concerned about my future and where everyone falls in place within that future. But I need to make decisions based on me, not anyone else, because while they might be around I still have to be happy with my decision in the end. But I'm so damn scattered brained and confused I dont even know what to do with myself, its like i cant make my own decisions, What the hell is wrong with me.

I watched all 22 chapters of Trapped in the Closet today, and now I listening to the Rent Soundtrack.

I want to see Color Purple in June, who's with me.

I'm torn as to if I want to see Jennifer Hudson, between her and Robin Thicke, that concert is boo-loving...And I have no Boo. BOOOOOOOO. lol.

i didnt...
There once was a man from Nantucket
Who's dick was so long he could suck it
He said with a grin
While wiping his chin
If my ear were a hole i could fuck it.