Mission eight while we converse..

Things I should definately be doing right now

1. Sleeping
2. Homework

Things I doing instead

1. Blogging
2. Loafing
3. Scratching my nose

So will I was waiting for my computer to turn on, I was thinking about things that are under rated, and I think Platonic Love is one of them, in this case I mean with the opposite sex. Most boy girl friend reunions, like seriously close ones, have some history, someone was tryna holla and the other one got turned down, or secretly there are some underlying feelings, which naturally occurs because you fall in love with them, because you've experienced them "Flaws and all", which really is true love. But actually Platonic Love is rare. And I don't mean, getting there after years of struggling to retain a friendship, but starting there and continuing on. It's great to know, that no matter how far apart you are, or tht regardless of when you call them, they'll call you back, and just because you dont talk everyday and know every detail of eachothers live, that love is still there. I've been struggling lately, trying to hold on to the past, reliving the memories, because I think that's all I have, but in my heart I know that the true love is there and it will wont go away. As an adult I have to deal with having my friends spread out across the world, literally, and that whenever I truly need them, their there. I dont need constant phone calls, texts or emails to prove anything, I hold it all in my heart. It wasnt really until I went to Disney in which I made friends that are a second family, I've never had to mke an effort to keep in touch with anyone, but i'm learing, and it helps that there so understanding and receptive of my methods. As much as sometimes I wanna call everyone everyday. Especially in regards to BF, it I called, he would call back and listen to eveything I had to say, no matter how ridiculous. Hearing that every so often would be great, but i know in the end it would make me itch.

Beyonce is keeping her video on lockdown. I need a break, and a fine chocolate african man, whose mother will cook me beans, she picked herself.

Give me the Green Light....

Wha wha whats your name, and whose your crew? I just got off of work, been there since 5:45, I work hard, so that it will pay off eventually. I want to go to Florida, in a few weeks. Im hitting up NYC again because my aunt is on the edge. Ill be there on the 3oth to see Tyra, this time Yasdnil is getting dressed the night before. I hate how dirty my contacts get after being in the city, I think my lungs are black. Im really kinda hungry for anything not Starbucks, Im really tryna do big things for my birthday, but no one has bread, or is old enough.

My existence, has became a lame occurance.

Why is it that all negative things happen on top of one another, its like you can never get a break to deal with one at a time.

I miss you old friend can I hold you...and though its been a long time old friend do you mind....Dreamgirls being a soundtrack to my life

Throwback Joint: Jagged Edge, definately called it

So me and BF are subconsciously playing this game. Were both to proud to admit how much we really miss eachother, and in order to avoid this, we just dont talk. For the past couple of days I thought that I was going to break the cycle and call him, because I really was losing my mind, but lo and behold he fell through first. This will all be over soon because after I move down there, we can go back to hanging out so much that we never had to say anything. Today in class, Creep Teacher, told me he wanted to hire me as his studio assistant, thats a negative, coming from the same teacher who feels the need to compliment me everyday, now if he were fine or rich, then maybe, but I can't work with neither. Lately ive been surpressing my stress, and possible mild case of depression, with a little retail therapy, which sounds prety harmless, but I've bought something every single day this week, I need to stop shopping and stack my bread up so I can move. I've never really had to deal with missing people before, all my friends were always around but now, there all over the world.

Story of my life

S

o the number 2 spot on my list of favorite people used to go to Jennifer Hudson until I saw that she got engaged to Punk after a couple of months instead of marrying regular boyfriend, of like 15 years. I know she has her reasons and I dont think she jumped into this despite what the media looks says, so she can have her spot back. I have yet to hear her cd, but i'm already a hater because while Spotlight is a catchy tune, my girl Jenny needs to be belting out some Whitney Houston ballads, or something, open your month and sing girl! I've been waiting pretty much my whole life for your cd, and this is what you give me? Unacceptable. Please hit me with your pocketbook, right in the head. I think maybe Punk and Jennifer Hudson have been together for awhile seeing how he wears her shirts and everything.

This is how my boo sings, not none of that spotlight stuff.

Im talking to Melissa on im, I think I just got her hooked onto yearbookyourself.com, it doesnt make any sense how funny that website is.

I had this dream about my car accident the other day, no matter how much I try I cant shake it, It still kinda haunts me in a way, im not really sure how to rid myself of the thoughts. I have thought laying in the back of head to talk to Throwback, but thats the extreme, and doing the absolute most. Plus that relationship was one sided anyway, he just listened to my problems and made me feel like he cared, but there is still the smallest granule of hope that he could have the answers. I have to stop expecting friends, or assuming people care at all, because you really cant trust a lot of people.

high ten
September 23

a double handed high five, reserved for especially awesome scenarios.

My Favorite Person of the day

I only hope that my work can evoke this much emotion.


As im sitting here in class doing homework, I came across this artist Kara Walker, who is officially added to my list of favorite people.