Ain't no shame cuz I gotta get mine...

SO! In an effort to remove my whole brain from being consumed with thinking about BF, trying so hard to delete or at least put my extreme level of missing him into the back of my head, I slipped. I called Throwback aka Tuxedo Mask for Lilo's sake. And after an infinite number of hours of rapping me up about what he's doing right now. I let myself allow him back in and now....im pretty sure he just left, and i'm further lost for words, and dont want to share anymore details. Just to stay my thoughts were removed, and now there back mangled with other complicated ones. And I dont understand. I DONT UNDERSTAND!!!