In a matter of hours my life has withered

Your first name of Nellie has made you a friendly, approachable, and generous person.
Generally you are good-natured, though at times you can be blunt and sarcastic.
As you are naturally talkative, you find it easy to meet and make friends with many people.
This name inclines you to be sympathetic and generous to those in difficult or unfortunate circumstances.
You can be firm, positive, and independent in your own ideas and in reaching your own decisions, yet when it comes to taking action or following things through to completion, you often need encouragement.
You respond quickly to kind words or any appreciation shown you.
There are artistic, creative abilities in this name that you could express through music or singing, or, in a practical way, through sewing or interior decorating
Although the name Nellie creates the urge to be creative and original, we point out that is causes frustration through a scattered and emotional nature.
This name, when combined with the last name, can frustrate happiness, contentment, and success, as well as cause health weaknesses in the liver, bloodstream, and in tension or accidents to the head.


Today at my job, I was pretty much told, "we have no reason to fire you, but we also can't afford to keep you" Which pretty much means that the hours of hours I work arent even worth it, factoring in the gas I use to get to work, and ,maitenance and all that Jazz, it will cost me more to get to work then I will be making. And I dont even want to start on the whole transfer situation, its like everyone has something to hide, why cant you just tell the truth, stop bs-ing. But then again what can I do, youre gonna get paid regardless of if you work or not, so what do you really care, but dont lie to my face, be an adult. Im just so mad, but my employment was up in the air and it was like no one wanted to take the time to explain to me what happened. I cant.... this definately is worth less then what im being paid or the hours im working. I dont know how much more I can take...of anything, I really dont, it has never really been this bad. Im so lost, I wish it could be better right now, but all I can do is cry because I know its as good as it gets. And my got dang phone is broken and I cant call B-more, even though now I have all this free time and I cant even meet up with me, because I cant call him, I work ONE day next week, kill me, shoot me, or whatever i'll do it myself. I really want to talk to him, but I cant, I cant talk to anyone, which leaves me to wallow in my sorrows alone, which is definately going to produce some negative thoughts.

Just took my little bit of happiness from B-more being back in my life and sit it ablaze. I really was so happy about it, but I cant make miracles, and I cant look to him as my sole source of happiness.