Grenade

I could throw grenade at myself for making one of the worst decisions of my life. And now trying to reverse it is becoming impossible. It really is. I cant do anything, go anywhere, talk to anyone without it being a problem. Possesive was 4 months ago this is a new level. I stopped seeing the point of this a long time ago. Especially when I know who I love and want to be with. But getting out of this shit is way easier to talk about then to do. I just wish I thought about this for real and not jumped on my first boat to freedom. I enjoy being on my own. But I have no privacy and I have more restrictions then before. I wish I could go back. But I cant. I dont even think I can get out of this.